It’s My Turn – a song tht brings back memories

It’s My Turn, by Diana Ross

Our collection of Forty-fives. deep wonderful emotion.  happy. exciting. new. wistful. strong. beautiful. crescendo.

I was twelve.

My first exposure to popular music.

I had only listened to gospel music or hymns, Broadway showtunes and children’s songs. I loved them and still do.

But this was new to me. I don’t know what the lyrics meant to me then; I knew they were strong; I felt the message of freedom. I had had no romantic relationship or negative family experience but I loved them I could hardly bear the emotion it brought up. Hearing the lyrics now 35 years later they are still strong, wistful, hopeful though bittersweet – bittersweet joy.   Hearing them now… years of questioning my marriage, heartbreaking to think of saying goodbye; knowing now I won’t say goodbye; but I can and it would be okay.

No answers, take chances, rain won’t hurt me.

I can’t hear it without crying but it is more of an joyful ache of heart-exercise, not sorrow. How could I possibly have had these same feelings then? Or was something there already?  I felt something already, holding me back – myself, my own insecurities, holding me back, still holding me back, leading myself into a less than ideal marriage, only to turn into revelations of forgiveness, growing, learning, acceptance, deep love…..

 

 

 

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3 Responses to It’s My Turn – a song tht brings back memories

  1. Roger says:

    Lovely!

    Really like how you ask about whether you could have had those same emotions at such a young age, or had the song changed meaning for you through your life.

    Either way it makes for an interesting question!

    And I liked how you wrapped up talking about something holding you back, etc. It makes me want to hear more about how you overcame being held back, and then moved forward?

    Nice!

    • Judith says:

      Thank you for your comments! I was interested in looking up your writing I loved reading about how your perspective changed on cowboys and Indians……

  2. Myra Medicine Waters Cheramie says:

    I want to write like you!

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