Essentials of Memoir Writing – Class Blog

Don’t close Your Heart
Let him go.
Hold Him in your heart of memoires of your life together long ago.
You two were so young when you first fell in love.
Just remember, we were even younger when we first fell in love.
First love, even teenage love, we never forget.
Over the years our live changes more than we could ever imagine, more than we can ever forget.
We tuck these memories tenderly deep within our heart. Even the memoires that rip our heart apart.
When we are lucky, the memories that bring a smile to our face, tears to our eyes, and warm tender tugs to our heart, are the memories that shall never part within our heart.
Never forget the memoires of him, just asking to let me in your heart once again.

The Dark Room.

Here I sit in this dark little room.

Surrounded by nothing but darkness and gloom.

Pitch black as night.

Not even a sliver of light.

How did I get here? I haven’t a clue.

The last I remember was talking with you

When in doubt, I always backtrack; Just trying to figure it all out.

Ordinary workday, nothing new.

Met you at the bar. We had a round or two.

How did I go from partying? Having fun?

To be in this dark, scary room alone.

Where are you?

Is this what I get for meeting a blind date?

Dear Lord, what will be my fate?

I AM

I am from Ireland.

I am from France.

I am from long hot summer days and warm breezy nights.

I am from The Lord is My Shephard, He is Always Near”.

I am from small town USA into large city USA.

I am from fields of wildflowers and flowing winds.

I am from let me help you, and thank you for being there.

I am from heartaches and better roads ahead.

I am from cold winters and warming my fanny by the fire.

I am from visions and dreams of what has passed and what is yet to come.

I am from, I can’t to yes I can.

I am from fear of the unknown and to go forth in faith.

I am from, what do I do now, and knowing I can always turn around and get in the right direction.

I am from Oh God, now what, to Thank you God for that.

I am from, I have to be perfect, to take me as I am.

I am from then and here; I am now in the moment.

I am me.

I am Rita.

First Love:
Why do you still stand up for me?
Why do you listen to me?
Why are you always there for me?
I have never done anything for you.
That’s not true. You gave me my first kiss.
You were my first love. That will always be special to me.
You will always have that special place in my heart.
No matter what the future holds.
Even if our lives take different paths.
No one can ever replace our first love.
First love, in so many ways, our first love, sets the path for all of our future relationships.
The way we are treated by our first love becomes a basis for which we set out our standards for future loves and relationships.
If our first love relationship is one of romance, special moments, and a deep commitment, we look for the same type of treatment in our future relationships, in our future loves.
If on the other hand, our first love relationship is lacking romance and commitment, we do not have a special feeling on which she based future relationships.
If we are made to feel special during our first love relationship.
If we are made to feel we are important and have that special someone we can trust to be honest with, no matter what.
We need those same things in any future relationship, even marriage.
Whether we realize it or not, not only do we need these things, but we look for the same in our relationships.

When people talk about first loves, they usually mention their first sexual experience.

This is not what you mean by first love. Sadly, if first love means a sexual relationship, not a deeply emotional relationship, it sets the path for all future relationships, even carries over into marriage.
When our first love has a deep emotional basis, our future loves and relationships are the same.

If we are blessed to have a reunion of our first love, then we are complete.

Personal thoughts:

While you have to follow your heart, just know that following your heart may not always end in happiness.

However, you would not have missed it for the world.

It too made you who you are today.

When life isn’t going right, go left.

When going left, you change your path.

You never know where that left turn could lead, unless you take that chance.

You cannot change the wind, but you can adjust your sails.

Use the words of wisdom.

Relay each one.

To my upside down, inside out foreign land status., better known as my life.

You just never know what this writer will come up with when she cannot sleep.

Now to sleep, per chance to dream.

Hello, Darling.

It’s me again.

It is Christmas Eve, 2022.

I am standing., looking out the front picture window.

While it is not snowing presently, snow abounds.

I will have my white Christmas.

I will also have a blue Christmas, once again, without you in my arms physically, always emotionally with me.

As I am looking at the streets, not totally snow covered, it puts me in memory of our first Christmas in Alaska.

Santa brought the kids remote control cars; a yellow one and an orange one I believe. You put thumbtacks on the wheels for traction.

I could look out our front window and see you and our three little ones racing their cars.

A sweet memory that still brings a smile to my face, a tear to my eyes, and a tender tug to my heart.

We never imagined a Christmas without you; reality hit hard just before Christmas three years later.

Christmas has never been quite the same.

Now, so many years have passed, since that dreadful reality; however, those memories continue.

We remain together in our hearts, as I know that your are always watching over us from your Heavenly Home Above.

Merry Christmas in Heaven My Yankee Airman.

All my love,

Your Southern Belle

I am going to take a different path in my writing today.

I’m thinking about putting it out there to you guys as a question I have been pondering over.

My reason for doing this is I am trying to decide which path I want to take in my writing.

I have a question and I hope to get some feedback from you guys.

My question is this.

Do you think it is possible to have more than one true love of your life?

Is it possible to have two true loves of your life relationships?

Do you think that perhaps a true love of your life relationship in high school Ever really ends, Does it totally disappear from your heart, or does it just slip deeply down in your heart as a sweet memory?

During our high school years, what is true love?

We are young, learning new things about ourselves, planning our dreams, we have our entire life ahead of us.

Perhaps, this is the first time we fall in love, the first time we meet and really connect emotionally with that special one.

Our first time two hearts become intertwined and we become a couple.

These are the days, as a couple, we plan our life together. new line we are going to graduate from high school, we are going to college, Of course we will become engaged before leaving for college.

Perhaps the high school love of your life graduates before you and heads off to college, leaving you behind to finish your high school days.

No matter, if that is the case, you are engaged, you are still a couple emotionally. You are only a part in physical distance.

So now, we have the first true love of your life scenario.

Often, not always, just more often than not, that first love of your life High school relationship falls by the wayside.

Questions.

Did you have a high school true love of your life relationship?

Did that relationship continue and remain the one and only true love of your life?

Did you ever lose that High school love of your life relationship only to revive that first love of your life, many years later?

Was your first love of your life relationship in high school or later in life?

To be continued:

Oh, how I wish we could have kept our promise.
We set so many goals when we were just newlywed.
We were right on target.
We had so many plans.
After all, we had our whole lives ahead of us.
We went through periods of steadfastness.
There were days of resolution, as well as times of forgiveness of each other.
Oh yes, darling, there were nights of glee.
We could have never imagined the changes life would bring to us.
Never in a million years did I ever expect to find myself in my present situation.
Life without my Yankee Airman
It just wasn’t supposed to be this way.

It’s me.

Hello Darling,

It’s me,

Today, December 8, is such an emotional roller coaster ride for me.

On the positive upside, this is the date of our youngest son’s birth.

A day of happiness when our family of four expanded to five.

The negative downside, this is the date that our little family’s life changed forever, in a split second.

The day our lives would never be the same.

The day our loving little family of five lost the heart of our family.

Today that would be the last time we would say I love you to each other.

The day that would be the last day I would ever see your smiling face, see that twinkle in your eyes, ask how your day was, get my hug, and tell you what was for dinner.

The day that turned my life inside out upside down and threw me into a foreign land.

The day I had to call our children; they were in the lower forty-eight with Mama in Alabama.

That day was a blur to me. I remember bits and pieces of the call in the wee hours of the morning.

A call that a wife, especially a military wife, never wants to receive.

The voice of the police jarred me awake. He explained that you were being flown to the nearest trauma hospital. Due to the severity of your head trauma; time was of the essence for your survival.

I have no memory of how I got to the hospital.

The emergency room doctor told me that you were unconscious, there was swelling on the brain, and they were going to operate to relieve the pressure.

I can still remember when the neurosurgeon explained that the impact crushed your brain stem;surgery was not an option.

Darling, I suppose I just lost it emotionally.

God always puts the right person in our past when we most need them.

I looked up and saw one of my best friends from high school, Wayne, walking toward me.

He just opened his arms and my backed-up tears flowed in a downpour.

Wayne was stationed at the base and heard about your accident. He and his wife stayed with me all night.

The day that would leave us in limbo for four years.

The day that my Yankee Airmen, my loving husband, the father of my children, the love of my life, my everything, you, darling did not awake.

I believe with all my heart that your spirit went to be with our Lord and Savior point impact on that snowy Alaskan highway.

The four years that you remain sleeping, was for me and our children.

I could still see you; I could touch you I could share the day-to-day lives of our three little ones. I could let you know how I was doing I could still say I love you.

You could not talk to me I know in my heart that you could feel my presence, could hear me.

That is all that kept me together during those lonely days and nights.

I was still not ready to let you go when you left.

It was just not supposed to be this way.

We had our plans; from our amazing blind date, from our whirlwind four-week romance, from our beautiful wedding.

A wedding pulled together in four days; while I was on a seven-day vacation to meet your family.

We had our amazing three children.

We were enjoying our Alaskan tour of duty.

We would have our next assignment in the north; we had been in the south long enough.

We would purchase and renovate our Victorian home in upstate New York for our retirement.

We would watch our children grow up, graduate high school and college.

One day, you would walk our precious daughter down the aisle, with tears in your eyes, yet happiness in your heart.

She would forever be daddy’s little girl.

One day, you would stand with our sons on the day they wear the love of their life.

We would enjoy our grandchildren, even our great-grandchildren together.

We would celebrate holidays as a family.

We would, once again, be just the two of us.

We would spend our days and nights together.

We would still cuddle together in front of a cozy fireplace.

Those were our plans.

God had his own plans.

He sent us on that blind date.

He gave us a wonderful blessed fifteen years and three months life together.

A life of love and happiness.

Of course, there were difficulties, Vietnam, my emotional struggles, the trials of everyday marriage and family, better known as our life.

Apart from that December 8 night on the snow-covered Alaskan highway, I would not have missed our fifteen years and three months life of the world.

Those were our plans.

God had his own plans.

You are my special sparkling star, shining so beautiful and brightly in the night skies.

You continue watching over us from your Heavenly Home Above

I love you my Yankee Airman.

Always and forever.

Your Southern Belle

A True Love Story Never Ends.

It’s Me